My Everything

You're the poison under my tongue

The toxic in my bones

The shards of glass under my feet

The bruises littering my soul

The sharks surrounding me

The worst nightmares

You're my everything

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yaaayyy more angsty teenage poetry :}

xo

A Peek Through my Sketchbook

I think an artist is someone who can make people feel emotional by experiencing their work {not necessarily art}. Any sort of emotion, it's all relative. Being an artist is certainly one of the best things to be. 

A Peek Through my Sketchbook:

{all drawings by yours truly}

coffee stains are the bane of my existence

 

 

she's missing an eye... don't question it

 

 

 

 

 

 

And there you have it! If a couple of these look familiar, I get all of my inspiration from Pinterest. Duplication is one of the best ways to learn. :)

xo

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There are stars in my eyes

and galaxies in my mind

Wires in my bones

and feathers in my brain

Lies in my mouth

and mold in my heart

xo

madi

5 Things to Always Remember

 

Five things to always remember:

1. Everybody is going through something. 

2. There's a difference between kindness and being a push over.

3. You always have a choice.

4. Let simple silly things make you giddy with happiness.

5. You are important, you are loved, and the world wouldn't be the same without you. <3

xo

Madi

Lets Talk: Modesty!

I think I'm going to start this new little series called 'Lets Talk.' It's not going to be published on a certain schedule, but only when the time strikes me to rant. It's called Lets Talk because I want to have discussions on y'all too about what you think on the matter, so always feel free to leave a comment. :)

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Modesty has been a big issue recently in my church youthgroup. The basic rules are: no tanktops and no shorts under five inches short. It's because the church doesn't want the guys looking at the girls and lusting, basically. To start off with, you always have a choice. About everything, but I'm talking about sin here. Nobody can make you sin, thanks to the free will God gave us. Nobody can make you look at a girl and lust over her body, no matter what she's wearing. It's a choice you're actively making. 

Second, putting the responsibility of your sin on somebody else is never ok. Making girls wear certain clothing is only teaching guys to justify their sin. Like ''it's okay I'm looking at her and sexualizing her because her shorts are 3.5 inches long.'' 

Now, look at the sentence above and the one below:

''It's okay I raped her because she was dressed a certain way.''

It's victim blaming both ways. Both sentences are fruit from the same tree.

Don't teach your girls to dress a certain way, teach the boys to control themselves. 

Third, it's insulting to both parties. It's insulting to girls because it's pinning somebody elses sin on them, and making them objects, not humans. It's insulting to the boys because it suggest they're not smart or strong enough to control themselves on their own. It's suggesting they're basically animals, not humans.

Fourth, a person can objectify you no matter what you're wearing. Booty shorts or a burka, it doesn't matter. So you might as well wear your 3.5 inch shorts, because it's pretty darn hot out. 

XO,

MADI

please leave a comment on your opinion, but be nice and respectful to everybody :)

Hello.

*awkward hello agains for the win*

Sorry I left you. But now that I'm mostly free of commitment {yay summer} I dearly hope we can get to know each other again. Let me introduce myself:

My name is Madeline, but I'm chill with Madi or Madz.

I'm fourteen and three months young.

My hair is currently long and brown/blond ombre, but I'm craving a short lavender pixie cut.

I adore makeup and books.

My current fav music is anything on the Christina Perri Pandora Radio, but always Ed Sheeren's X. 

I have a Christmas tree up in my room year round and I'm not ashamed.

Peach herbal tea is my jam and I'm rocking it. 

Summer is my favorite season but skinnies and oversize sweaters are always welcome.

I get all of my photos from pinterest unless they have my watermark. ;)

Leave a comment below; say hello and tell me about yourself! :)

Clean Slate

I'm trying to remember how to breathe,

I'm trying, oh so hard, to remember how to see the world again without holding onto your hand.

I'm trying to taste, to feel, and to explore without every single thing reminding me of you.

Because it wasn't worth it, to hold onto your love.

Nothing was worth it after tear filled nights, holes in the wall, and my body stained with bruises. 

I've washed away all the memories--terrified nights, hiding in the closet--along with summer days filled with our laughter.

The good and the bad, I've washed it all away from my clean slate.

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Please bare with me as I figure all this blog stuff out. :)

{Also, a huge thank you to Emily from Twenty-One Designs for giving my blog a fresh look. Isn't it lovely?}

The New Blog

I am pleased to introduce:

the new blog

also,

A Beautiful Blur

And so our adventure ends, my friends. The new blog is a work in progress design wise, so please bear with me. I'm going to at least try to design it myself before turning it into a hot mess and handing it over to a more experienced blogger. ;)

There is a follow button, is if you would like to stay updated about my goings on and what not I'd love it if you followed. Please don't feel obliged to.

This blog is going to be kept up for reference and if you'd ever like to run through it feel free. 

{There is one last non update-y post coming up, so be on the lookout. I hope it'll be a good one.}

-Madeline

Saying Goodbye

I've had this blog for little over three years.

I've made tons of great friends on it whom I won't forget.

But now it's time to say goodbye.

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I've decided to have a fresh start and start a new blog. I hope that it'll be up by the start of Feb.

For In The Wind, it'll still be up, and anybody who wants to peek through the archives is very welcome.

I'd be glad if you'd like to follow me on my new blog, but for those who don't: thanks for the journey. It's been really great.

I'm looking for somebody to design my new blog. If you'd like to and have had expertise, please leave a link below to your design blog/page. I'm pretty much broke, so it's not likely I'll be choosing somebody who charges, but I'd still love to look through your work. :)

And I will leave a link as soon as it's finished just for anyone who wants to see it.

I'm terrible at saying goodbye, sooooooooo:

Thank you for putting a smile on my face every time you comment. Thank you for the sweet words. Thank you for following my little rambly-blog. Thank you, most of all, for being you. <3

The new blog's name:

A Beautiful Blur

Reading Suggestions And My Favorites

**Before we go on: I have made a choice concerning wether or not to keep In The Wind! I'm announcing it on Thursday and all I can say is that I'm very excited for the future.**

These are a few of my favorite books and books I'd suggest for certain moods. I tried to add some books that are new and I loved. Read ahead, book warrior. ;)


Dark but not too dark:

You know when you're in the mood for something dark, but you don't want to be scared senseless? This book is the one for you.

 

Daughter of Smoke & Bone by Laini Taylor is breathtaking. Dark and romantic with angels and demons. There were a few things I didn't agree with {from a religious standpoint--you may have no problem}, but it was amazing still and at the last book I wasn't ready to end the series.

When you're feeling alone:

When you're seriously disappointed that fanboys are such a rare species, read this and you won't want one anymore. You've got a fictional boyfriend now. ;)

The Conspiracy of Us by Maggie Hall was just--- GAH. You know. It's a debut novel {??} that just came out this month; with a backdrop of Paris and Istanbul and a couple other fabulous countries it's bound to give you chills.
{Shatter Me is another great book if you're in this mood. It's just been read a lot so I decided not to add it}


Short and Sweet:

A book to read when you haven't got much time or when you're participating in a book challenge.

 

We Were Liars by e. lockhart gives you summer cravings and dreams of the beach. Around the 130 page mark it's the perfect book to read quickly. There were a few plotholes that will bother you once you're done, but it's not worth it just to skip this book.

A new Dystopian:

I know you're probably pluck-tired of YA dystopians and have read them all, but this is a new one you won't want to miss.

Snow Like Ashes by Sara Raasch is such a complex world. You don't know who to love and who to despise; but you do know something's terribly wrong.

*I had to set this book down a few times just to do slow breathing*

That's it for now! I sincerely hope you pick up a few of my suggestions. Tell me below which ones you've read and which ones you want to read. :)

*how I feel about all the books*

The Moon

I mourn the moon as it slips from night to day,

say goodbye to my silvery friend

I turn my back on what is fading 

and welcome the sun,

hello bright friend

you speak of glorious new beginnings

I held the moon in my arms

the stars wept as they disappeared

''don't be afraid,''

my silvery friend whispered to me,

tears painting me liquid silver,

''often the sun brings brighter things.''

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Happy Thursday! I couldn't decide which one to publish so here's my ramble-y thoughts, gathered into a poem about a moon. xx

Into The Forest -- My Old Novel!

This isn't actually the start of chapter one because that was too gag worthy, so this is about the middle. Please enjoy this forever embarrassment of mine.

{If you don't know this is the story I wrote when I was about ten. I promise /hope I don't write like this anymore. Re-writing this is one of my New Years goals.}

Though I try to find Prissy, a familiar voice calls my name. ‘’Alissa!’’ it cries, over and over again. ‘’Percy!’’ I shriek. Old, proper Ms. Johnson, who doesn’t approve of my best friend being a boy, glares at me. ‘’Quiet down!’’ She says, and waves a wagging finger in both my and Percy’s directions. 

       ‘’I was looking all over for you,’’ Percy says, as if I was trying to run away from him. ‘’And I was looking all over for Prissy. Do you have any idea where she is?’’ I ask. ‘’Probably trailing the King’s and Prince’s carriages. Why?’’ I glare at Percy. Even though Prissy may not be the brightest or best sister, I can’t afford to let him tease her when she cannot defend herself. ‘’She’s not that low. Only the blonde girls do that.’’

       ‘’And maybe that’s why they are always chosen?’’ Percy snorts. Snorting isn’t becoming to anybody, but Percy’s sharp jaw makes it okay. 

       ‘’Oh, just don’t talk to me,’’ I moan, starting again on my journey to find Prissy. ‘’You know I don’t mean it,’’ Percy says, walking along with me. Being taller than me, he finds Prissy easily. ‘’Over there,’’ he points in Prissy’s direction. He’ll probably suppose it makes up for his teasing. Being Percy, one can just simply hug a girl and both she and Percy will believe there is no hate over his teasing. But all those girls are only aware of his ‘’dreamy’’ sharp jaw, short, fluffy brownish black hair, and brown eyes. I’ve known him for what seems to be forever, and couldn’t care less about what he looks like. 

       

*dies forever*

Even though this was terrible, I'm really excite to write it again. I absolutely loved and still do the plot. :D

{If you'd like me to post more from this, just comment!}

Grey

His arms were warmth

and his eyes full of fire

but now his arms don't reach out to me anymore

and his eyes are too cold

all I see now is grey grey grey grey

the colour of his eyes.

Things To Do When You Feel Sad/Insecure

 

* drink water

* take selfies you know that are stupid and ridiculous but they're fun

* take a shower

* text a bestfriend

* eat fruit

* pour your feelings onto paper

* listen to music

* clean something

* remember that you're beautiful and I think you're great

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{ little things concerning the photo above: that photo isn't mine. Most are from pinterest and I have a disclaimer below that states that, but I like to post the reminder every now and then. Just so you know. :) Second off, when I saw it something in me stirred so I knew I had to write something about it, so it will be seen again. Little things not concerning the photo above: Until I make a decision concerning the blog regular posting times will be every Monday and Thursday. }